This morning I received a picture of Cathy’s finished Block 1 with Butterflies. I really like the Butterflies – especially better than the original “birds”.
Update on the RF treatment – things are looking like I am back to normal – YEA! I just did not realize how bad I was hurting. Let’s do more of this more often Dr Growney!
I usually do not blog personal feelings, experiences, etc, but this morning I was looking back at the year 2014 before Clay’s son was diagnosed with terminal cancer and where I was in my quilting journey. It was on 22 April 2014 on his 50th Birthday. And here we are 2 years from that horrible day when we found out about Darryl, and I have been wondering – “why do I have this feeling that I have lost 2 years of my life”? Why am I so behind on the projects that I wanted to do in 2014? It was at a time when I had started my Blog, learned about Australian quilts (like Di Ford’s Mystery Quilt), and buying all those beautiful Reproduction fabrics and patterns, when our lives stopped in time.
Before this happened, Life was good, I was happy and excited about taking on highly technical and challenging quilts to enter into Quilt Shows. It has been difficult for me to find that “spot” again, but I do believe it is coming back to me. I realized it this morning when I scrolled back to my 2014 Blog Postings. Ah, the memories of where I was then and where I am today. It has inspired me to realize that I need to “get with the program” and go forward – as fast as I can.
I have learned that anytime one goes through this type of situation, life changes all around you, and when it is over with one has to deal with “getting over the horrible emotional time”. For the first time in 2 years, I feel like I am coming back. Energy level is going to be so much better, mood will be more like I was before that date in April 2014. I had experienced something similar to this when I had to become Legal Guardian for my Mother from 1986 through 1996 when she had Alzheimer’s. She was in a nursing home and I had a full-time position with the Government. No one even knew how to spell the word, much less what it was and how devastating it can be on the person who has it and the family. Of course I was still in my 40’s and maybe I was able to handle the stress of her illness, my position at work, raising two-step sons, finishing my college degree, and ending all with a divorce much better then. When she passed the one thing I remember was that I wanted to retire and quit working. I had a difficult time trying to figure that one out. I think it was the grieving process that we all go through when we lose a loved one.
As we age, stress is more difficult to handle and especially if it is a family illness that takes a loved one away. But we who are left to continue on with our lives must continue to work through the sadness and learn to appreciate and love life again. I feel that I am on that positive road again, especially with the help of my dear Dr Growney and Dr Neidre who have helped me through 4 back surgeries and now watching over me with post operative sciatica. How Blessed I am to have wonderful Doctors to care for me!
Of course, none of my happiness would be possible without the love of my husband Clay who has never left my side in 20 years, and my dear friends, Jaydee, Cathy, and Wanda who always support me when I am need a friend!
Thank you for listening as it is rare for me to post anything but quilting on my Blog.
Have a blessed day and Live and Love your Life! Always!!!